hope

Nothing worth doing is completed in our lifetime,
Therefore, we are saved by hope.
Nothing true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history;
Therefore, we are saved by faith.
Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone.
Therefore, we are saved by love.
No virtuous act is quite a virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as from our own;
Therefore, we are saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness.

-Reinhold Niebuhr


I've loved this quote since I found it in high school.
Through different stages in my life it has helped me, and reminded me.

Days like today seem impossible, and they make you question so much.
I spent most of the day crunching numbers, because it's my job. I spend 40 hours a week in a windowless building, with gray walls, gray carpet, and dull florescent lights. I listen to phones ring off the hook, the women whisper about each other, and all the while there is a steady hum coming from the hundreds of keyboards.
And I wish for the sun.

Danny has a bird nest in his vent. He and I are the only ones who have noticed it.
And since he has been gone (he had surgery) his door has been shut,
and I've missed the birds.



November can't come soon enough.

Today I got to talk to three of my best friends
And it brought so much light and warmth to my day.

We're all so lucky to have each other
to be so young and so surrounded by so much love.

I hope you feel the sun today,
and I hope hear the birds.

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Lost River

Jillian and Jaime, this is for you.

Since I've been gone I've been reading both of your blogs pretty regularly,
to make sure that your lives are still beautiful and wonderful, through all of the trials.

It probably sounds silly, but I'm still intimidated by the phone.
I don't know why but it's always been hard for me to pick up the phone and tell people that I love them, that I miss them, or that I just need to hear them, because 320 miles makes hugging a little bit hard.

And for that I'm terribly sorry. I've been trying to call more often, and I'll continue to try.

So, I decided that maybe blogging would be a good idea, and that it would give you both, and whoever else that wants to, the chance to check on me.

Now. Where to begin...



There's an incredible little place down here called Lost River.
It's a cave system as well as a state protected park and wildlife sanctuary, and it has become dear to me.

Today was one of my first days off in about a month and I went down there today to spend some time listening to the river and the trees, and spending some desperately needed time with God.

So many things have been crazy and overwhelming lately, and I've felt like a compass without a true north...

I know everyone finds themselves here, from time to time
with the whole world spinning, just trying to find the sky.



I miss you, and I hope you know that You've never left my heart, not for one moment.

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